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Tuesday, May 31, 2011
今天，偶然看到朋友的FB Status。
曾经也很在乎为什么没人记得我。
曾经很在乎活动没了我依然能很顺利进行。
曾经很在乎大家都忽视我的存在。
I admit it is nonsense.....
Maybe just nothing to do....
Then think too much ba.....
Yup....nothing to do...except....waiting??sleeping??
Whatever la....
It won't happen and just was my dream.....
So, wake up le YONG JIN JIN!!
Anyway, Im afraid for tomorrow la.
Tomorrow will be work at KL for the first time.
Work until 10pm...then if really need to walk at night alone like afternoon today such a long way...hmm....Im worried...I know Im not pretty...so maybe no one will kidnapped me la....but just worried@@
Hope everything will be fine soon ba.
Jiayou Jiayou~~!!
Monday, May 30, 2011
I have no idea what has happened on me
==
Just feel lazy to move.
Just feel like wanna sleep and don't want to wake up
@@
Crazy.
+Theme song+
meaningful
狐狸雨
Sha La La
Two As On
+Nice lyric+What kind of fate is it to somehow meet you like this?
It is strange that the more I see you, the faster my heart beats.
Is this love?
Are you aware of these feelings of mine??
看样子外面很晒
但，我的世界好像是晴天。
很想就飞去
一个自由自在的地方
而不是被绑在这里
很想飞去某处
特别的某处
有你的地方
有你的影子
可以吗？
哈哈
傻了
笑一个吧
不要想了
因为有些是不可能就是不可能~~
我依然会是我 =)
A nice movie
Not because the sound effect is awesome.
Not because actors is pretty or handsome.
I felt impressed with the story line.
I felt impressed with the angle of taking every scene of this movie.
NICE+AWESOME+IMPRESS
If you are the person who dare to watch horrible movie, this movie is worth for it~~!!
3 siao people go cinema watch this horrible movie and in the end 3 of this siao people keep laugh in the cinema@@ lolzzz~~
This movie should come with beloved one and watch de. So that girl can just lie on boy.xxx and xxx~~~haha~~It seems that I becomed light bulb tonight@@lolzz~~
The kid who spirit's is flew away from body.
One of the "others"
His mum is a brave women indeed. Caring for her child and brave enough.
At first of this movie, his dad show the coward attitude. But then, he save his son bravelly by flew out his spirit from body. And yet in the end, he can't come back to his actual body. Sad case.
Ellise. The women who help them get out from the difficulty. But, at the end, she still die.@@
是否真的习惯一样东西？
习惯某个地方？
又或者习惯某个人？
我好像眷恋着我家那张床。
我家那间厕所。
我心里那个家的主人。
可笑
哈哈哈哈哈
好好开始这三个月的心生活吧。
不想再想东想西了。
要不然，会产生副作用。
吃醋、妒忌、自卑、伤心、EMO等等都是习惯的副作用哦~~
哈哈哈哈哈
加油吧！
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
早上，我还真的有点闷闷不乐。
收拾行李的心情不好受。
刚回来几天又要走了。
妒忌的心态更是令我觉得很厌恶自己。
那种我很讨厌的感觉涌上心头。
觉得自己很可悲。
为什么自己会出现在这世上。
可悲。
可是，下一秒，当我收到一封信和一通电话，我的心情360度大转变。
信是Tanjong Scholarship 寄来的。
首先是说Trainning+Work 时间·······
但，当我看到“Outdoor experiential trainning at Bayu Beach Resort, Port Dickson” 这句时，我的眼睛发亮！！
天啊！！有的去Port Dickson？？！！
我真的无法相信自己的眼睛~~
不用花钱可以去“度假”还可以拿到工钱，那种感觉超好的！！
更重要的是，我一直很希望能去岛屿玩~~！！
虽然PORT DICKSON 不是岛屿，也只是个海边。
虽然朋友多说那里很肮脏，不比TC干净。
但我已经很满足了。
想享受大自然的美。
吹吹海风。
想脱离现实的生活[压力+工作+读书等等]
知足的人会比较快乐^^
可能还有机会在那边遇到帅哥？？！！
嘿嘿！！
超兴奋的！！真的是迫不及待希望7月快点到来。
再来说那通来自Watson的电话吧。
有点难以置信的感觉。
想当初，还真的没那么的勇气去参加什么Watson Award 的比赛。
毕竟，自己没有天使般的脸孔，魔鬼般的身材嘛。
但，为了PTUM，还是抱着和大伙们去玩玩的心态去参加拍照环节。
今天，一通电话打来。
的确，让我开心了很久。
我入选了LUXURIOUS LIPS 的类别。
嗯，性感的嘴唇······我有吗？？
哈哈~~
其实还挺失望的。
毕竟，拍照环节时我参与两项类别。
一个是LUXURIOS LIPS，另一个是SEXY BODY。
我承认我也很清楚自己没有SEXY 的身材啦，只不过我记得当天拍SEXY BODY 时，我真的豁出去，然后摆了一个S字型的POSE。
哈哈~~还真不要脸啊杨晶晶==
玩玩下嘛~~嘿嘿~~
不过，现在是性感嘴唇哦······那是不是意味着我的嘴唇很性感？？哈哈哈哈~~
那以后我的男朋友可不是很赚到？？
哇咔咔咔咔咔！！！
杨晶晶，你又自己在这里发花痴了哦~~哈哈哈~~
也许，我真的要对自己有信心点吧。
把以前自卑的我抛得远远吧~~
重新开始向前冲！！
为了自己，为了PT！！
*目前还是先解决当天要去拍照入选照和工作的时间的问题吧@@
Thursday, May 26, 2011
[ The Moment
Used to dream that will have a romantic dance with my prince by this song.
Lolzz...=)
Opss~~
I forget to write an article to say thanks to someone who help me fix the "like" at my blog~~!!
Lolzz....Im quite noob to computer stuff I guess....two days also can't fix it..
But...now...it was done!!!
Thanks ya Zhi Jian!!
Appreciate it alots^^
*Treat you eat at mamak next time.lolzz~~
A Thailand love movie also
=)
This movie is talked about a girl who aged 30 years old who still single and didn't ever have a boyfriend before.
She felt lonely as all of her friends get married and she lost her best friend that can talk with her and eat with her during break time at office since her best friend quit the job after married.
Loneliness.
Until she met a guy in an accident for the first time.
She follow him at the Lrt and hope to get know of him.
Sound like kinda stupid.
But...I guess when I get know a guy which I like, I think I would do the same things as her??
Lolzz~~
The guy is a handsome guy, she like him for the first sight.
However, everytime when she met him, she sure broke his things.
Such as, sun glasses, camera, laptop etc...
Lolzzz~~ I guess I'll face the same problem just like her.
As I always so careless lost things.><
She is an infatuation girl actually.
She can be so crazy just for him.
I guess Im same kind of species with her ba.=x
A stupid girl like her actually is cute.
What she want is very simple.
When she was down, she needs a guy who she like cheer her up.
When she is sick, she needs a guy who she like take care of her.
When she is lonely, she needs a guy who she like can accompany her.
That's simple.
A Thailand movie.
This movie is talking about love between two girls, known as homosexual (lesbian).
This movie is a sweet movie and perhap there is a sad part of this movie which make me cried.
The actress confused about the feeling.
From beginning dislike a Tom girl be her roomie until get in love with her.
Somehow, have to admit say that this kind of love really need alots of braveness from the party who involved.
Because, there might be different view and arguement from other peoples.
However, glad to have a happy ending for this movie, as I abit dislike of sad ending movie.=)
* The tom girl is very handsome^^ but as what Cocoro said, she look handsome, but when she spoke out...hmm....lolzzz...abit sound like kids???hahaha~~abit look like Simyean oh..hehe~~
A relax time for me perhap.=)
Yet, those movie left me a big impact and meaningful for me.
First, is an Hong Kong 7 episod drama, named "
This movie is saying about a guy who look very ugly but he sing very well and he like to sing.
However, in reality life, every people is love to judge people by looking their look.
No one love him. No one be friends with him.
He can't manage sing on a stage as his look is ugly.
Everyone look down on him.
However, there is a miracle happen.
He get a miracle "chocolate" which can make him change become a handsome guy for 24 hours.
He achieved all of his dream by changing to a new look.
However, at last he choose to become himself which is ugly forever and stay with his original look.
He want to be himself.
Well, this movie quite similar to me as I was ugly too what.lolzz~~
Somehow, I dream of being pretty so as what the movie show.
Hope that can become pretty when wake up on the other day.
But, it won't happen in real life, except if there is really a miracle ba.
Yet, I wonder how many people would let go the chance that can be pretty or handsome forever??
Even myself??
I wonder.
Yet, I believed that, just be original of ourself is the best way to make our life more colourful.
What for force ouself to become another person and live in the world full of lies??
No matter what happen, Be yourself, stay strong =)
人生的路很长，多长你却往往不会知道。
甜酸苦辣+咸的滋味，在短短的三天里体验到了。
先说说苦这个味道吧。
有人说，在人生里，先尝尝苦的滋味才会比较特出到人生精彩的生活。
我本人非常赞同这句话。
在这九天里，大家一起撑过来，难熬的日子也这样撑了过去。
虽然我最后三天才来，但是能看出来大家的苦。
不怕日晒雨淋、不怕被人指指点点、不怕被挨骂········
苦，也要苦得有志气。
辛苦了。
再来说说，酸这个味道吧。
酸，在这里指的是咱们的辛酸吧。
九天的辛酸，换来的是什么？？
这个我不能肯定地说出来，因为每个人的想法都不一样。
我只能说，辛酸能让一个人成长，变得更成熟。
不管是在看待事情、处人待事、或者在各方面的思想也会变得不同。
因为，大家都体验到人生现实的一面。
辛酸换来的是成长，我认为是值得的。
辣，该怎么形容这个味道呢？
也许大概是在形容着大家不管是心灵或者肉体面对的痛吧。
在跑着DD时，我相信大家曾经面对大众的拒绝、甚至嘲笑与责骂。
肉体会觉得疲惫和累，但心灵上的痛更是受创伤。
但，大家依然面对这痛，越战越勇。
这就是咱们的精神！！
累了，就好好的休息再充电再抗奋！！
至于咸嘛，大多是指每个人所付出的汗水、眼泪和辛酸。
这些“咸”都是大家愿意付出的。为的是第11届的马大灯笼节。
为的是要把它办得最好!!
在说说每个人的“咸”处吧。
所谓的“”咸“处，不是指大家都很咸（虽然当中可能有些人还真的很“咸”~）哈哈~~
所谓“咸”处是大家的另一面。
大家在同个屋檐相处大约九天的时间，对彼此的了解有更深一步的了解，也知道彼此另外一面的性格。
大家原来私底下也蛮颠得起的嘛~~嘿嘿~~
有了这种颠的气氛，大家也就能在从DD回来家后，可以一起闹、一起颠、一起胡闹，快乐的气氛才能就此产生。
大家“咸”得起嘛~~哈哈~~
最后，就是甜了！！！！
辛苦了九天，换来的是辛酸的甜。
大家的互相了解、互相加油、包容和体谅是在这次DD收获最大的。不是吗？？
大家很多从一开始的不原意去DD，到最后不原意离开DD，这证明了什么？！
大家的心，我们会看到，老天爷也会看到。
希望他能帮我们顺顺利利举办第11届的马大灯笼节吧。
当然，我们这一群小马也要向前冲！！
大家加油吧！！我们还有半年的路要走！！
PT11加油!!
PT11全心全意，永不放弃！！冲啊！！
Lets us have a lesson here.
Can we just ignore everything??
Can't.
Because we still got our responsible.
Because we care for our juniors.
Yet, that why IM TOTALLY DISLIKE AND IGNORE POLITIC from the beginning.
Im speechless for all the politic.
So why not just get far from me??
I just want to study peacefully and make our life more easier at University.
But, it seems that it is almost same when it get into reality of life.
What can we do for a Non-bumiputra??
The answer is easy to know it.
Not argue, not sensitive issue..but just voice out what we face.
We were just an ordinary normal students.
Why can't just treat us fair enough just like the Bumiputra??
Don't make us feel that what we do is useless and unworthy.
Im commentless.
Totally speecless.
Wednesday, May 25, 2011
有时，
还真的觉得自己很没用。
不知道。
也许，处女座真的要求完美吧。
不只是把事情要求完美，但也把自己束缚得很紧，要求自己要完美。
偏偏，我，杨晶晶却不是那么完美。
对，这世界没人能十全十美。
但，杨晶晶这个人感觉上除了一直玩闹，就别无一处了。
样貌身材没有就算了，但感觉上也没有用处了。
糊涂。
没脑。
不会做决定。
粗心。
没有CRITICAL THINKING。
简单来说，没用。
表面上的我很开心，但有谁知道活在水里鱼儿是否活得开心？？
很抱歉。
看来，最近我还真的很容易EMO。
快点走开吧EMO先生。
别来再找我了。
我需要自己的空间。
Monday, May 23, 2011
That me.
My life.
Chinese Community and Indian Community is no longer exist at 4th college.
At first, when en keat told us, we thought it was just a joke.
But then, at Kursus Kepimpinan....everything seems just happen like that.
Maybe it is good for us??
But why, I just felt that so sad.
Sad for our juniors.
I don't know why.
If this called Malaysian is negara bebas??
I wonder.
Just hope really as what pihak pengurusan said.."kita cuba dulu"~~
Ya...cuba dulu~~
However, a great memorable memories at Bukit Merah.
As we were bited by leech until can't stop bleeding for one whole day==
A "great" memories in our life perhap.
A long way to go.
Jiayou~~
CC+IC is under JKP KEP (Kenegaraan, Etika & Patriotisme) in future.
All of us with the pihak pengurusan.
Temporary roomie 375~~
Girls team
Guysss team
The only Chinese.
Raft-building.
Have a fun time at water park =)
Nice shot ^^
And finally my best friend my dear.miss you*.*
Sunday, May 15, 2011
有时，
人还真得屈服于现实。
是吗？
马来西亚。
1 Malaysia 的概念真的行得通吗？？
不晓得。
一个人的思念很重要。
要不然，Bias，Steriotaip，Diskirminasi 就发生。
这很重要。
很多的不公平会让人觉得很无奈。
唉~~
Doesn't belong here.
Shouldn't.
Got one minute that thinks of pack off everythings and just fly away from here.==
But, can't do anything except waiting for the time pass.
I hope time can pass faster.
I wish somehow Im at there work hard together with you all now and not online-ing waiting now.
I wish I wish.
Everything just seems not work in right ways.
Chill~~!!
Saturday, May 14, 2011
STOP TOUCH MY HAIR IF YOU DON'T KNOW THE MEANING OF TOUCHING A GIRL'S HAIR!!
DISLIKE!!
STOP PRETEND THAT YOU KNOW ME WELL!!
YOU DON'T KNOW ME AS WELL.
ARGHH!!!~~
忘了是怎么开始，也许就是对你有一种感觉。
忽然间发现自己，已深深爱上你，真的很简单。
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓，是是非非无法决择，
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随，那个疯狂的人是我。
喔......
I LOVE YOU，无法不爱着你，说你也爱我。
I LOVE YOU，永远不愿意 BABY 失去你。
不可能更快乐，只要能在一起，做什么都可以。
虽然世界变个不停，用最真诚的心，让爱变得简单。
爱得地暗天黑都已无所谓，是是非非无法决择，
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随，那个疯狂的人是我。
喔......
I LOVE YOU，我一直在这里，一直在爱你。
I LOVE YOU，永远都不放弃这爱你的权利。
如果你还有一些困惑，请贴着我的心倾听，
听我说着爱你 YES I DO。
I LOVE YOU，I LOVE YOU，
我一直在这里，一直在爱你。
I LOVE YOU，永远都不放弃这爱你的权利。
well....I have no idea with it.
Alright...I know la...If it is truth....then I should be ok..
Coz Im flexible what...
And I used to adapt with the situation...
Coz as someone xxx said..this type of girl like me will only SCARED THE GUYS AWAY FROM ME~~
well...I agree...
but...seriously...WHATEVER!!!
SO WHAT..SUAN LA~~
YEW~~
很好，杨晶晶。
你还是失败了。
原来，你还是逃不出自己围墙。
还是那么介意。
算了吧。
Bias 也好 steriotaip 也好 diskriminasi 也好
别人不理你就算。
在他们眼里，你永远不会是“耀眼”的那个也好。
算了吧。
反正，你试过。
反正，你伤过。
免得再伤得更深了。
反正就是反正。
EXAM IS OVER!!!(eventhough Im dead><")
YESH~~!!
That means holiday is coming~~
But,so sad.Im not having holiday actually.
Today start KKCB Camp until tomorrow.
Then Sunday having Kem Kepimpinan Bestari which held at 4th college and PERAK!!wheetwheet~~(half of trainning+half of holiday^^)
Then only join PTUM Donation Drive for 2 days istead of 10 days.
So sad.
Because I did really hope can join DD and helps them collect as more as money as I can.
But perhap there is some choice we need to do and responsible that we need to pick up.
SORRY YA PTUM LOVELY GANG.not mean to FFK...hmm...felt guilty...sorry~~@@"
Hope everything is fine so far at there.All the best everyone~~~!!
Then might work at KL for the coming 3 month.hopefully.I need mon ey seriously.
So,it would be my holiday.pack yet meaningful^^
Thursday, May 12, 2011
感觉上变了。
没关系。
真的没关系。
是吗？
对吧。
只是………
少少的遗憾？？
因为毕竟以前大家是那么的疯狂开心过。
现在却成了陌生人似的。
朋友，我在乎。你知道吗？
讨厌。
这种感觉似常相识。
很讨厌。
因为很自私。
我承认，我真的很自私。
也许，就是很怕失去什么。
所以，才会要求更多。
要求人关心我。
我知道，
是自私。
抱歉。
也许我真的把朋友看得太重。
就只想静静的
那样静静的
靠在朋友的肩膀
告诉你们
你们真的对我很重要。
原谅我的无理取闹。
原谅我的自私。
抱歉。
Wednesday, May 11, 2011
真是够力！！
真是无言。
这种人竟然可以假到出汁！！！
对，只能用出汁来形容这种人了。
只能说一句：小女甘拜下风。佩服佩服~~
所以说啊，做人还得真得小心旁边的人。
因为你不知道他们变脸的技术有多高~~
真得需要一段很长的时间来认识一个人。
加油吧~
我还会是我。
也祝那些人变脸的技术越来越厉害吧~~
只希望他们不会有一天跌下来，因为我相信会很痛。
Tuesday, May 10, 2011
Monday, May 9, 2011
很抱歉，我无法伪装。
变脸这技巧对我来说似乎有点难。
我是个很简单的女生。
喜欢就喜欢，不喜欢就不喜欢。
你可以在我脸上很清楚地看到我的喜怒哀乐。
因为，我就是那么单纯。
嗯，对一些人来说也许用“单蠢”来形容我吧。
因为，在现今的社会，一个人若学不会变脸这招，就注定被欺骗，而且会被伤得很深。
对，我被伤过也被出卖过。
那次，真的伤得很痛。
因为，我太容易相信人了。
也不会把最真的自己好好藏起来。
听起来还真得有点笨。
但，我就是我。
我喜欢这样的我。
简单。
简单的生活才会愉快。
讨厌复杂。
所以，请原谅我不会伪装。
当我讨厌一个人时，我的脸很明显写出“我不爽你！”
所以，很抱歉。
当我不爽一个人时，就证明你在我心里已经完全失去那个叫做“信任”的用词了。
不必因为我的不爽而觉得伤心，因为大家都有自己的生活。
但要说的是，当一个人讨厌你时，也许是那个人自己本身有问题。
当两个人讨厌你时，也许是他们无知。
但，当很多人讨厌你时，我想，你自己就应该好好反省了。
很抱歉，我依然是我。
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Saturday, May 7, 2011
I wonder what happen to me.
I wonder where is last time YONG JIN JIN has gone.
I wonder I have lost. Or I had lost.
I may lost.
I will lost.
I could lost.
LOST.
Friday, May 6, 2011
人群中哭着，你只想变成透明的颜色
你再也不会梦或痛或心动了
你已经决定了 你已经决定了
你静静忍着 紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜就是越伤人
越是在手心留下密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了 于是的合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则 不是你的选择
于是你含着眼泪飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞地走着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了 然后才后悔着
你不是真正的快乐
你的笑只是你穿的保护色
你决定不恨了 也决定不爱了
把你的灵魂关在永远锁上的躯壳
你不是真正的快乐
你的伤从不肯完全的愈合
我站在你左侧 却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾一直到老了
你值得真正的快乐
你应该脱下你穿的保护色
为什么失去了 还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着
要继续往前飞了~~
飞去一个挺复杂的世界。
还蛮舍不得关丹。
这里一切都很简单。
而哪里呢？？
感觉是一个复杂的花花世界。
再见关丹了。
半个月后会再回来的。
等我。
Thursday, May 5, 2011
如果骄傲没被现实大海冷能拍下
又怎会懂得要多努力
才走得到远方
如果梦想不曾坠落悬崖
千钧一发
又怎会晓得执着的人
拥有隐形翅牓
把眼泪装在心上
会开出勇敢的花
可以在疲惫的时光
闭上眼睛闻到一种芬芳
就像好好睡了一夜直到天亮
又能边走着边哼着歌
用轻快的步伐
沮丧时总会明显感到孤独德重量
多渴望懂得的人给些温暖借个肩膀
很高兴一路上 我们的默契那么长
穿过风 又绕个弯 心还连着
像往常一样
最初的梦想紧握在手上
最想要去的地方
怎么能在半路就放
最初的梦想绝对会到达
实现了真的渴望
才能够算到过了天堂
绝对会到达
天啊。
第二次了。
紧张的情绪好像越来越逼迫我了。
第一次，是老师在面子书写的Status。
“我怀着期待与兴奋的心情宣布：我回到马大灯笼节了！回想最后一次参与的《真情不变》，已经是4年前的事情了。我曾经向某些人说过我一定会再回去马大灯笼节的。也许这句话对他们来说早已忘记了，但是这句话却一直存档在我的心里，我期待它有一天能实现。就这样4年过去了，现在我终于实践我的诺言了。回首自己曾经参与过的《真情不变》《重返消逝的月光》《梁祝变奏曲》《蓝月》，有很多甜美的回忆。很多曾经的学生演员，现在都变成了我的朋友，剧场的伙伴。这种时间催化下的化学作用真的很奇妙。
